Savey' mate?

Today was our gang's POC day. hah. Well, something diff though. Belle and see choon joined us. Its pretty weird to sit next to sc as well. I guess just not use to it cause he is "new". hah Well, new to me but not someone, hor abby? hah. Its cute lar having so many ppl to watch the muvee together. Wah, i give thumbs up for the muvee~ Seriously. Superb production lor, like the scenery, background, pirates, etc. Good, good. Satisfying. Cheers matey! :) Opps, nearly forgot to mention the hot actors they have in it. Sizzling, tastyyyy. haha.

College life is abt to get back to its usual position. Hectic, sleepless nights bound to come back sooner than i think. Although i only have 3 classes. I am striving to make the best out of it. Dont know why i keep having this impression whereby, i will get lost somewhere in between. Sigh, i have to get a grip. Follow the flow. Perhaps its cause i havent finish my actual marker or berol for this week. Nor i am anywhere close to finishing my mag's asssignments. I cant seem to find a time to think abt it clearly. Afraid to get it all wrong and there goes my life. hah. Joking?! I will find my direction soon :) Hopefully.

Cant believe that some where back in the days, we were that close. Me and my ex. Nowadays, its hard to pretend to be frens. With all the "yo, watssup" speech. Its hard, to pretend to not care. Talking to him, seem so fake. No longer that sincere friendship, or that sweet love. Last time we just click, but now? I cant see the chemistry iether. I guess, you can never be good frens with yr ex. Just don seem right. I am not in the mood to fall into that whirlpool again, so don get me wrong. Just, seem wasted. Nothing i can do, not asking for anything either. He is deep down a nice guy, but i still prefer how we were frens back then rather than now. sigh.

Unexpected, he actually replied me. hah. When i just don seem to bother anymore. Anticipation kills. So, just lay low. Whats meant to be, will be?! :)

I NEED HELP, i wanna change the layout of my BLOG! help me someone! I don't know what to do. *sobs*,*sniffles*!~*

Dedication to you Sharmaine. To our special stars-- Yours, mine, hers.

Don McLean
Vincent (Starry, Starry Night)

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

Heard this song in one of the tvb drama. hah. Starrie starrie night, a pressie for your blog opening ceremony :)

Apparently, do u guys know? If u are crazy for a song. But only know a little of the lyrics. You can do this. Lets just say i only know, "if u wander of too far, my love will get us home". Go to google. Type in if u wander of too far, my love will get us home 'lyrics'. THATS IT and you can finally get the name of the song you like and download it. Just like me. Here, my pick.

Christine Glass
My Love Will Get You Home

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.

Okay, its a lil' old skul. But i like it. Feels so comfy and soothing. Then again, its from drama as well. :P

Loving, Fergie's- Big girls don cry. & Chris's- Home.
Sometimes, i can relay on Fergie's track. Like you said abby. It does remind me of him. I guess, that was back then lar. I have to be strong cause big girls don cry. hah.

Anyways, i MUST get back to my work. Its gonna be another week. Again, and again. sigh. Till the next time i can slot in time. Byai's~*

Oh yah, i finally got my pictures. Look so different huh compared to my shot? haha. Here.

Okie, mama:)

Here i am again. Too BORE, so here i come blogging. hehe.

Well, today is the deadline i set for myself. Its to forget and lead on to my life. This refers to my recent obsession. You guys, no point teasing me abt him ad! Its over before it even started?! haha. Okay, i shall not sulk anymore abt this. Sick of this damn topic ad, i bet u guys too! hehe. NEXT:P

I love spending time with my family.

Saturday, went scrolling with mama and sista to MV. Again and again, more and more. Mum is paying again for my stuff. I just cant help it. I am trying. TRYING. I will stop. But i seriously need some shoes! Shoe hunt anyone? hehehe. Dinner had some yummy pasta, sista's specialty. Wakakak. *grins* i pick up a couple from her so i think i can handle it by myself now. hahaa. A new recipe for my collection. heh, i Love pasta. Slurp.

Sunday, went popo hse. I dont know why. It just feels comfortable going there. Spending some time with my cousins. Cant help thinking what would our lives be when we re all grown-up? Hrm, will we still be so tight? Only time will tell i guess. Oh yah, played with sis's bf-- newton's toy car at the lanes near popo hse. MAN, the car has real engines, run on petrol! SO DAMN cool! AH. i was scare to control it. But, i did anyway! HAHAHHA. It can drift, i think i am like a boy. I like this kinda thingamagie. :) Its cute, cool and YAYS. Exciting. *cheeeers* Cant wait to go to the course to play with it. The slopes and all. WEE~*

Okie, mama. WHY? This is what my mama said: "Why not enjoyed being pampered till the fullest here and only further your studies when you finish?" This was the advice my mama gave me when i said whether i should go to aussieland earlier or later. She said here i have everything- car, no hsework, food provided etc. She said i will have a whole life being independent. Well, which was true. So, i think i will finish my diploma here. I do wanna spent more time with her and my family. Being away seem so sad at times, although i do wanna be more independent. See more things and explore. Live in a diff environment. But, i guess it could wait just a little? hehe. So, okie mama, okie! :) i guess this settles it! ME and TOA till august! Stuck to you!:P Girls, Shar and Ja! No worries i will still be going to aussieland to visit u all during my break! hehee!

Fix me, i am broken. I am so lazy to do my assign. Some of it. I hate the visual work! CRap. CAN you just walk away but i don have to fail? haha. I have been dreaming too much , too too much. I better skip and finish my assign. Wanna get it done earlier. So i have time for mag:) Anticipation bites. Bye-e.

Simplicity.

Finally gone thru a whole week of class. Well, almost whole? hahha. Just my classes lar. It was O-kay i guess. What to expect in the 1st week? Lots of new faces and some familiar ones in my new class- AD058-1. I guess i have to start getting use to writing this instead of AD055-2. Will definitely miss you guys. WILL do! sigh? :)

Was browsing at my old doodles from my diary. Well, i came a long way to get to where i was. All the silly things i fuss abt and all the crushes i had. I tend to dream and wish alot. I tend to let my imagination wander off into space and come up with all softs of endings, etc. Which was cute back then. Now? I call this naive? or childish? I don't know what to categorize them? But its cute, i guess i can look back at them and have a laugh or so. hehehe. People do grow right?

For now, i will just live my simple life. At times, i would want to have more? But, i am grateful. I am. I understand now, what is more important. Where my priorities should be. Since it is still the beginning of a new term, i wanna get myself ready and make the best out of everything. Others? Sometimes, i just wanna forget and give up the hope to have something with him. Or to even to get to know him. I am tire, i am. I am just a simple girl who needs simple things. So, i give up. I don wanna do anything more. I wanna be myself and lead on my life as how i was. :) Hope i can eventually do it. ( i know i can, cause i had gone thru these twisty moments many many times. :P) *Cheers*

From my doodles, i learned that i had always believe in fate. Or in god. I believed that god has a plan for everyone of us. Is it silly to think that way? Well, sorray then. I had this mindset since i was like form something lar. hahaha young and innocent mind of mine. Till this day, i still believe that everything happens for a reason. Still believe in karma. But for all the bad things i did (stealing, cheating?), i think i will go to hell. So not much of hope to go to heaven lar. I am trying to be a better person as days go by. A more obedient daughter to my parents, a more caring sister to my elder sisters, a more sincere friend.

For my girls out there, test ard the corner. (Not mine though, hehee) Good luck okies? I will start missing you girls and him? Nah, i hope. hehehe. I get over my silly gaga soon enough. My special comet starrie. hehehe. You get what i mean, i know. :P You reading it, take care lar. Good luck with SL also. 24 too! Sincerely posting it here, it might come true!

My god, so sorray for this boring post wei. I dont know what came over me. I just feel, its a end to a new beginning and this is when a new beginning appears again! Get it? haha. Confusing eh? :P Just take this as a random post lar. A RANDOM ONE. Got some stuff on the list to complete. Phew, it is another beginning. Another. To all TOA pals, hand in hand we work thru this term and the next next next. GANBADE!

Lastly, a random picture to wrap things up. Yummies!

Wee Hee~*

Time goes by. Its saturday today!!! Tuesday class loo! hehe.
I got my timetable and classes settled early this term. :) Quite happy with the classes i have now. Basically i have:
Tuesday: 6pm-8pm (Yah, guest lec. So the time is pretty odd.)
Wednesday: 230pm-630pm
Friday: 11am-3pm
Thats all! heheh. Its pretty okie lar, will have alot of ME time. Make-up classes still pending, but if the times are right, i will definitely take it up. *Cheery-o's* hah.

I love my term break, well its almost over. Despite from all the bad like, NOT DOING ANY ASSIGN or some of not so comfy nights. It was good. I fell i experience a turning point this term break. Like i feel i had gone thru some changes and learned some new stuff. Well, here is my story.

I went all "goo-goo" over some guy that i hardly know. It was fun, like it has been so long since i had like a major crush on somebody. I guess i just enjoyed the first impression i had abt him. Simple, Love (well, kinda. This is some part of love?!:P) is blind. Dont you think? hehe. Though nothing happened, i dont even think he remembers me for someone more than just a random fren. Maybe just a, VERY RANDOM one. hahha. *sigh*? Its okay, liking someone sometimes can just be sweet, like you feel some life in yrself. Well, thats my opinion though. Just felt that way. I felt blessed, well "xin fu" to be exact. Dont know why though. I guess some things are just meant to be, so there is nothing to expect or have hope in. Admiring is meant to be like that, isnt it? Hey Mr.x I dont think u will read a random person's- my blog right? But its okay. I just wanna say, I Secretly Heart You:) hehe. Quite glad lar that i am no longer like crazie over him, just happy i did during my term break. Made it more, hmm, colourful? Yays~ hehe:P

Like i mentioned in my previous post, I love my shopping spreeees during the term break. I went to alot of places to look at things and also prepare for my upcoming subjects in the new term. I quite like the changes i am making. Everyone should have a change once in a while right? haha. Its fun. It gives more perspective and also more hurm, well more varieties i guess? I am happy abt it so thats most important. Hope you guys, my beloveds, hah enjoyed yr term break as well!:) I had seriously, ALOT of rest. I cant wait to get going again and get busy! Come on you guys, i will be alwes up for a trip/adventure/drive to any place you all need to go. Perhaps, printing again?? haha. I can alwes help out, okies? *wink* So feel free to jump at me! weehehe. Back to the shopping topic~ (Girls best fren, yayhoo!) I M SO IN LOVE with SHORTS now. I mean more than my MINI'S. hahhaa. Its a crazie shorts frenzie now!!!! Though i hardly find any super nice ones, so will see. =) hah~ Besides that, colours are also what i LOVE now. It gives happiness and also brightens up the mood. So yay! Support! hehe.

Been doing some thinking, i do wanna find love. For a moment there, i just assume that i perfer to like be alone and single? I guess, its kinda like more of a companionship? But then again, this kinda things cant really be predictable. Its hard to find someone who loves you or should i say ME for me. Or even for me t0 love them back. So, just leave things as it is. Like i say, Things are meant to be. (i kinda alwes say this, haha. But i do mean it!) I am pretty happy for my all my frens who is able to find their love. Just like my sis. haha. Went with her to sg today. Well, simple car ride, shopping, eating yummy dessert, yada- was just so so sweeeet. Bless them, may all lovers be together and hope that they will find their understanding:)

What else is there to write, OH yah, tmr is Mothers Day! Well, its pretty commercial now. But still, Happy Mothers Day sincerely to my dear MAMAW:) This year kinda special, i treated my mum to a pedicure, a gift and also dim sum tmr! Well, at least i think, i am going dim sum. I am not too sure now though. Oh well.

I guess i will sign off here. That was my story and it will alwes go on, so stay put! hehe. Ta's for now! xoxo.

Yeah, i spoke soon enough.

Yays! my uncle is out of ICU.
I have my room! Thanks for the concern you guys. :) xoxo

These days, besides the disturbed nights of sleep (buhbyes to it, hehe) I think shopping bug is biting on me again. Cant recalled how much i used, but shopping therapy can really cheer a person up and bring joy to your life. HOORAY! Enjoying evry bits of it. BUT I CANt wait to get back to college. To get back having life with my buds, miss them dearly. AND also some solid assignment time. Slacking off ALOT these hol. Relaxing:) (Not putting the no room days in count), i had alot of sleeeeeep. Feel recharged and cant wait to get ready to go again. Well, soon anyways. :P

Next term, i think i will have 3 classes? So i tawt of enrolling into a make up course. Its fun and i am pretty interested in it. So, see how things go lar. I have been looking at some of the make up acedemy they have ard my place. Anyone know any details, feel free to drop me a word yah?

Oh, dont know whether i am just making all this things too early. I am gonna check out the details of credit transfer to aussie soon. Just feel i should get some details. Definately i will be finishing this term here. So, lots more time. :)

WE have to meet soon girls, guys, you all lar. hehehe. Missing you ppl in action lar! YOR.

I MUST go sleeep now, no, you din get it wrong. ITS 11.15pm. I need to sleeep. Ah, ta's girls!

I need my space.

I came to a conclusion that, i need sufficient space to maintain being saint. Seriously, today will be forth day, which i still don think i can sleep in my room later at night. SIGH. Night, is the time when i do my own things, listen to some tunes, meditate or something. AH, but for the passed 3 days and 3 nights, i cant!!!!! My uncle was admitted to the hospital to go thru a by-pass. ( In result of eating too many oily food and work-stresss, yada.) So my aunt, she stayed over cause she was afraid of being alone. O-kay. Fine by me. But as days goes by, i find myself sitting downstairs looking at the ceiling, unable to enjoy the tunes and also the peace. Then i noticed how important it is to have enough and undisturbed sleep. (These days i have been sleeping on the floor mattress, just like a fugitive fleeing from parents room to sis.) I cant really fall into deep sleep as well. I seriously cant take it much longer. I seriously cant. Having constant headache and flu from time to time due to this matter. I, sincerely pray for my uncle to get well soon so he can get out of ICU and then i will be able to have my own room back. MY OWN.

I don think what i am doing is worth it. I think i am gonna give up. Hate the anticipation and i dont feel i shall wait anymore. Good-bye my fren. Good bye:)