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Yesterday was dad's bday. Happy bday dad! I was too obsess with editing the picts till i forgot to blog. Din take much picts also ler. Hurm, no one wanted to be in the picts. So forget it la. waakakak. People were more attracted to the food! We went Tony Roma's @ Sunway Pyramid. Yah, totally dumb to go back college area eventhough i dont have college. *sigh* what to do. Parents wanna try out the place. Well it was not bad la. I just ate what people order, cause i know the helping like super big. It was just nice by the way. We had fun and a very satifying dinner. Personal rating for the meal i had. Maybe 3.5/5? It was okay. Enjoyed it.

Mum woke me up at 9am today. *yawn* I have no idea why do i always have to go with her, to meet all her aunty frens. I am getting frus and tire with it. After eating then they will sit there for hours. I guess, if i was too free. (I wasn't, i had class but i skipped! hahah) Told mum will go with her to Curve so i just went lor. Finally brought my lappie to the shop. Apple is so nice. They just check it for free and helped me with the bootcamp. Though i still have to install windows. Which i havent, will soon, but not now. Feel so wanna lay down now. Relax. Got my dodol also form the shop. Then roughly look thru the current stuff they have. Wanna draw them out later.

Its weird you know, these few days, my family asked me abt my ex. Just yesterday, my grandma asked me where was yr little fren? *smiles* Why is he not here wth us having dinner? awWW, how sweet of her. Then today, my aunt and her frens brought it up again. They said they like him, as a person, as how he was. Commented saying he was nice. When my aunt said, " Ama like him, i also like him lar." Feels so warm. From there, i can feel their care and love for me. Well, i liked him too, hold on, rephrase, I Loved him. But, again and again, i have been saying. Things will happen cause it is meant to be, it is fated. If i was given a chance to change things, i still wouldnt expect anything from him. Its no point to make him go against his nature right? So as long as he is happy. I rather i change. Therefore, i chose to give up. Sometimes, i feel i might be wrong, cause of all the promises to be together forever, i did not keep mine, to be there, for you forever. Call me selfish, but i cant keep being taken for granted. So, as how things are now. I wish we are both happy. Happy for days to come. :) As simple as that. I love my family, thank them for their concern, their love for me. God bless them.

Won't be uploading picts in this blog, cause tmr i know i will have more picts. So will blog them all together. So till then, ta!

Officially, my new term.

Well, finally i get to settle down. Dont mind me at the last post. Don't know why, this time, i really just leave it to fate. Its not up to me how things work. Things happen for a reason as well. The college wants to standardise, put an end to the old system. Whih is kinda good also la. So, okay. I have to stop one term. I will graduate in term 10, which is August, 08? Yah, provided no other failings la. wakkaka. Will try my best to maintain it this way. :P It would be the last term i spent time with you guys ler. But, no matter la. You guys will always be my best college buds! wakakka. Still include me in yr big big trip ler! :P Anyways, i have 4 subjects for this term. Have class on Monday, Wed, Thursday and Saturday. Wee~ more time for assignments and also drama!! haha. I actually think i will find good in this. Just meant to be la, no point i go appeal like what some say i should. :) As for aussie, even if i go. I will still complete my Year 2 for this diploma lar. At least a better end rather than just half way. So it all depents la. Worry abt that when time comes. Oh, today is jee's bday! Happy 2oth bday pig. :p Hope he is able to complete his studies by term 9. You guys also ler, good luck in the rest of the term, ganbade ler!!! Sounds like i am leaving ad. wakakka. Soon, soon. I will definitely miss you guys la! *sigh* When i don have class, i will sure go college and kacau you all. Fetch you all to lrt again la! wakakka. :) Just feel everything really happens for a reason, like i feel god has ad like arrange them for each and evryone of us. Which is pretty special when u come to think of it. *wink* So, appreciate and enjoy! :P Wanna go catch some tv ad lar. Ta.

New term? NOT.

It is ad an issue to me that i have to go see step evry term to arrange my class. But not this again. It seems that, I might not be able to proceed to the next term. *argh* What the fuck, toa! take back the words and promises you gave to us? Whats the point of me working my ass out to achieve good results, so that i won be on the border line of failing in order to proceed? Seriously, toa, is not a very trust-worthy college. Last term i was relieved that they let us proceed and the condition was that we don fail anything. Now? Back to square one. The battle begins again. One subject only for the whole damn term? Uh-huh. This time, i don even have the urge to go thru with this again. Just being too naive to believe what they said last term ad is a mistake. Should have sign some agreement. Wasted effort for me to prepare for my new term also, the new 2007 when what happened back in 06 is repeating itself. *sigh*

I was then, and now.

Went to college today to check some things out. Results was not bad. No c's. :) An improvement. *wink* Collected all the timetable i can get, hopefully i can go to the illus's marker class. I guess i rather have a full day in college rather than like another day extra. Hurm, so just hope things will go my way.

Can't help going there again, lala. Yah, u know where. Brings me back to how it all started and also how i ended it. It was something so special then, that i believe i was living a dream, a life where i would have a happy ending. A family, with kidds, ambitions and your soul mate. But, back then, I was so into him. My 1st priority . I would finish my class, and urgent to his place to do assign, to spent time with him, to cook him pasta. I would bake for him, I would wake up early on my free day to bring him lunch boxes so he can have them after his college, make him his favourite sandwiches. Take care of him when he is sick, pack his room. Spent my time, making him gifts, planning for an occasion. Knowing that he love big crowds, so let him spent our festive days with frens. Actually, for me, i rather just spent it with my love one, but, what to do. Well, evrything just seem so perfect. Not for long for me to lose my patience. The fact he takes his frens more important, drop out on me so he can he can meet his buddies. In his mind, he feels that i will always be there, so, he can go with his frens 1st then only come to me IF he had extra time. *sigh* This phrase is still ringing in my head, "I sacrifice my fren time just to be with you." That pricked my heart, woke me up. So, i was just all that to him, i finally knew. Maybe to some ppl, i am too much, (guys being guys, rite?). This time was not like the other time, i was really determine. My heart and feelings just stop when i recall the last conversation as a couple.

He was also a nice guy, pretty much what i ever ask for in a guy. He is sweet, my own "gf", companion and soul mate. We would go for movies, shopping spree, yummy food, trip to end of the world if i say so. (Well, almost. hahah.) He knows when i am sad, he knows when i am happy, he knows how to cheer me up, how to work things out for me. Tried also to help me with my work, hurm, sometimes. Most days he will just doze off. Love the way he sleeps, like a cute little baby. Love the way he tucks me in, food delivery, his pampering, his small little thoughtful actions. :) But all this has come to an end I guess, now, he will be happier since he can FINALLY have all his time to his frens. So, yah. Thats it.

As days go by, i have also develope a diff personality. I no longer believe in happy endings. I know now, i have to stand on my two feet. So, i have to be more independent, confident when i come to a dead end in my life. Try my very best in evrything i do, so i can make a better life for myself. I know now, it is important, to have friends. To not only put all your soul and life into merely just one guy. To me, back then, family was not an issue. Well, now, i love them more than before. I know how to see things differently now. Cant express how much i feel, how grateful i am to meet new frens, yah, its you guys ler. I know we haven known each other for long. But just as long as we are happy when we have each other, isn't it enough? Lucky i was that ivy who neglects her frens just for a guy like before anymore. wakakka. Or not don't say any trip, any muvee la, i am sure to be absent for all. :) I will crazily rush to see him, to meet him. *sigh*. (I might be mentally ill back then to do such things, eh?) Its all good now. To me, 2007 is really a new beginning. As a different person, with different goals. Thanks guys, for being my friends, my classmates, my companion. :P

So in love with Kenji Wu, 吳克群. He is more talented than Jay. (OMG, i cant believe i just type that.) He is, well in writing songs. He wrote so many songs for his album. Came to know abt him in Lollipop. Lucky i did. Cause i love his songs!! Songs like 殘廢, 我有罪, 不屑紀念, etc. are like *cheers*. wakakka. They rock my world :P I feel i am losing my sense for english songs. Anyone who has any english songs, any songs to recomment me? Feel free to! I wanna get updated la. Especially for english la. hahaha.

Tommorow, is officially the 1st day of college. Hope evrything goes well, symbolising a good beginning for the yr! :p Glad that i express all i got to say in this blog. Wee~ Anyways, Got to go get some things done now. So, ta.

* getting crazy with the colors, bear with me!*

Emotions.

WEIRD.

Just so happen.

It was pretty obvious.

Out of expectation?

I was there.

Some things, just meant to be.

So, just let it be.

Fated.

2007, i am gay.

Yup, super gay. hahaha. Started my 2007 shopping spree today. Wee~ (well, did not wait for 2007 also la actually. :P) hehehe. Anyways, loving what i bought. I know its pretty early but, i bought my cny clothes ad. Might still scout for a new bottom to go with the whole set, since i do have like new top, and under garments. Finally got the watch that i was eyeing, finally today i made up my mind to get it. :) I actually like it for the animal print strap. Its in a zebra printand also it has this furry surface! The face of the watch well, not really super nice. But for the strap. Its worth it. hehehe, thanks dad for the x'mas pressie! (A late one.) I am a total guess freak. I officially have like 3 guess watches. I think i will keep this for like special occasion. :) Thanks Mr. for the love watch. Still lovin' it! heheheh. One of these days, i should really visit the outlet where they sell the strapes, which is in Pan Global. Hurm, gawd, i dunno where is it la. :( But its okie la, will get there one day. Or someone who knows, pls give me a ride! :P Other than that, i was thinking to myself why didn't i get one of the adicolor collection while i was in Adidas. I didn't expect to find one in my size. So, i was just browsing. Then, i saw it. One of the adicolor! YAY! Tra-la-la! Gawd has made my day. It has my size and it looks kinda my type also. Its silver, and it comes with four diff, hurm, i dunno what you call it, the "stripe" ? yah, it 4 diff colours too. Though i would perfer some other colour. If u guys see it, tell me yah. I wanna get diff colours. :) Today is my day, i consider it as the last shopping spree before i start college! So, cheers! hehehe.

Previous paragraph, practically wrap up abt my spree. Actually why we(Mum, aunty and cuz) went to klcc? Its because my cuz are like leaving for Queensland in Feb. Which is basically kinda soon. So, they had to go and check out some stuff. Like shoes, jacket, air ticket, etc. Mum was pretty generous. She bought my cuz a topshop jacket and another a nike shoe as farewell pressie. Wow! hahaha. I guess, onece in a lifetime. They are the 1st ppl to and leave to study, excluding my sisters la. So okie la, summore like relatives. Sums up to be like Rm800? yah, generous! Its actually the 1st time i am like going out with them in such group also. I think i am gonna miss them lor. No one to crap with ad. Aiks. But i guess, everyone has their life rite? It just depends on the timing, bound to happen rite? Hurm. Mum say in 2008 we will visit them, then can put up in their apartment. Then i also can go Melbourne to visit my colleges. :) Take good care of yourself girls, and remember, to get things for me!!! hehehhee :P Oh, oh, and my collection of booklets and post cards kiez!

2007, Its a new beginning. Pretty freak out that i might not be able to go to the same marker clas with jee. I wouldn't be use to it. No one to blabber with, No more "if" questions?, No more stupid conversations, prep talk? Ah! I cant take it! So i pray la, hopefully there will a time for you and me! Purlease. As for the others, i wish this yr, i will be even happier and also have a healthier. These days, i have been sleeping pretty late. Its not i dont wanna sleep early. Just that, i cant fall asleep!!! Argh! So yah, healthier lifestyle. Moreover also maintain or even be more dedicated to my work! Spent more time with my family, my frens!! :)

Just a few words in my prayer.
Thank you god, for giving me what i have now. I will appreciate them with all my heart. Please bless the people i love with much happiness, healthy life and please also lead them to a promising and bright future. xoxo.

Lastly, some picts to wrap things up.

Late X'mas pressie.

Adicolor Superstar 2

The "stripes"

31st of January 2006

Finally, i settle down after my trip to genting. Well, it was only a day trip. But i just cant stand the journey there, the inconvenience of the facilities there, the expensive food, yada yada. But i had lotsa fun, though it was a bit, way bit too chilly. *brrr*. We had to cuddle each other just to stay warm. hahaha. But, still, glad i went. The whole trip, despite from all the above, was FUN!

It been a year guys, since i 1st met you all. Thanks for everything & also thanks for bearing with me and my ways with things. (Sometimes i can be a lil' too stubborn and bossy,yay, i know. hahaha. :P) I guess, since we are all diff, that makes us a stronger team. So cheers!! hehehe.

Anyways, I was the photographer for the trip, well, kinda. So there are not many picts of myself. But i got this firework pict that i am so in love with! hehehe, Represents a bright and promising 2007, a great new beginning. hehehe. I will pass my thumbdrive ard so u all can get the share of your pictures. :)
(Abby, chill la, wait patiently yah!)

i love this.

I tried uploading the other picts. But i have no idea why is not working. Well, giving up for now. Load some other time. :)
Till then, Ta.

01-01-07

No matter how fckin tire i am, how sick i am feeling now, i must blog as today is de 1st day of 2007. hehe. Yay!! lots went by in 2006 and 31st was a memorable one. Lovin you guys, missing you already. :) Will blog abt the memorable last day of 2006 soon!

Happy 2007 people!! Hope we will be able to "slim" into our perfect 2008. wakakka. Need to go catch up with some frens so, ta for now. Muacks!