Happy 50th Bday!

Haha, typical title. But once in a life time i guess. Since it is 50 yrs. Yet, i do wonder whether i will still be ard for the 100th.

Yesterday, went to Mellow Cabbage's (Rynz) boi house for bbq. Stupid girl freak me, by saying no cute guys at all. So i was expecting like all ah beng, lala's. *rolls eyes* She also did said there is no anyhting in that hse cause it is on the progress of renting it to ppl. So, gosh. what am i gonna do there. Chippie (Sammie) was suppose to be there as well. But she wasn't feeling too well, so sent her home to rest. Gosh, get well soon okies, sweetie? :)

BUT, lucky for me. There were some interesting guys. I mean they are average lar, fun and one or two are cute? haha. Especially the model look-alike. Freaking thin. Envy. Then Wilber Pan look alike. haha. see him digging into the lamb chops. :P I did find a passion in bbq-ing the food. AT LEAST I HAD SOMETHING TO DO, made me satisfied ad lar. *grins* Then, a firefighter would come to rescue the burn food whenever i screeeeeam my lungs out. (Thanks mate, this refers to rynz boi's fren)

Ard like 1245? or so i head home. There goes Merdeka Day. Woo Hoo? haha. No fireworks was a pity. Only heard like the impact, din see any. Driving back was also a journey lar, ppl still walk ard with their flags. haha.

I might not be a very semangat Malaysian as i don feel the urge to actually celebrate for it. Though its fun for the get-away, the gathering. To meet new ppl and to go places. It would only be fun, if time allow us to do. Which is just nice now since its explore. Gosh, i don want my holiday to end. Time is drifting away just like that. *sigh*

From the moment i became single, things ard me changed. I noticed now. I wont be like celebrating all this big festive days with my frens. Instead is just with him, that special someone that i once love. Since last time i am more of a BF person. Everything would be him 1st, then next would be my frens then me. So i don have much frens. I wont go to parties without him, I wont even wanna go anywhere just as long as i have him to cuddle with and that will be good enough. :) hah. That was me. How silly, can i be right? Just being able to be with him and spending time, i thought i was satisfied. But, it all different now. DIFFERENT. I do wonder how would my next relationship be like. O well, not like anyone can tell me that story or even even sure that it would happen. So, leave it to fate :)

Yor, my blog is so boring:( HELP ME, i need make over lar, for my blog. Getting sick of it till i am attempted to close it down. ARGH.

Hoping all good things will come for all of us and bye lar :P xoxo.

*Happy Belated to GAN lala!!! 28th bday girl! :P

The beginning of an end.

Gosh, i did nothing for the pass 5 days. Today is Friday. The 4th day of my term break. :)

Its been great so far, was so damn gay about the fact that Yays, there is no need for me to be on my lappie doing, rushing my work. Though its only for 3 weeks. Sigh?

Before i forget and let it go in my past. I got an A- for my publication design. My one and only Shh magazine. hehe. I was glad that i made it lar. Was a bit worried that i could not score. Well, what Leon commented did also make my day. Thanks Leon for the advice. I would seriously bear it in mind and will continue to work hard for all my other subject. The part where he said, "every page (of my mag) has love and effort, i can feel it when i read it." Awww. haha it did sound a bit pervert, BUT still. *wink* Although i had to sacrifice a lot of my FUN time for the mag, but i think and feel its all worth it. Leon can see my effort and me being hardworking. When i think about it, I never miss one critique or any of his class before. Gosh, i am sucha freak. O well. Hah. Thats that lar, thank god my effort paid off. *chheers!* I do feel, what i do do not require any skills. So, I think being hardworking can really can me going. Well, at least i hope? I dont really know how it all works. sigh.

OMG, i remember blogging about this before. The shopping bugs are biting into me again. Just in one day i spent more than 300 bucks. So just in this few days, i spent like 1k? Kill me, kill me pleaaase! Okay, i do only have this shopping rash during my break. So, I blame TOA for giving us break. :P I know, i need to stop, buckle up. I will, i will when term commence. Now slowly i have to cut down again. Though last month I din spent a cent lar, so i did already make up for the expenses i made. I take my words back, pur-lease don kill me papa. I LUP YOU. Now and forever, i promise. *wink*

Today, its my day. Although i din manage to shop for my new watch, i did get a few other stuff. I realize my list goes on and on. Most satisfying gift is the "Secret"! WOO HOOO. hehe it cost me RM129 as it is an imported version (Rock Corner claims that it is?) It comes with a book which tells about the movie. It basically the OST of the movie. My o my, Jay seriously knows how to dig some money out of his fans. The book's cover feels like its printed on MILK paper. Soft and so, IRRESISTIBLE. hehe. Lovin it. Thank god i manage to get the last one in the shop. *bluek* Sorry Mellow Cabbage, i wanted to get one for u as well.

I did also invest in one ring. Sigh, i do need a boi soon lar. Damn sad to like get myself a ring, which cost me another 125. :( I dont mind paying it on my own. But wouldnt it be more sweeeeet if your boi gives you a ring instead of your own. Yes, i might say. YES. Just my luck that, i see and meet no one. *boo hoo* Maybe i am just not cut out to be a gf. I do miss all the small little things that couples do. Liek how they do cooking together, shopping for groceries, watching drama cuddled up in bed. AhHh, thinking about old times bites into me as well. Argh. Bad! My mum would so kill me if she knows i also bought like 2 more tops. OH, and a pair of shoes!!!! OMG LAR. :( hah. IMABADGIRL. :P I am still checking my list for things to buy. I can feel a hole burning into my flesh now. Got to stop, stop. Soon.

Tomorrow will be a bright new day. I think i would start my berol simplify soon. As soon as i decide when to pack my wardrobe. haha, one fine day. I wanna go catch up with some dvd. Before i end this long winded post. Here goes. Sorry aight, bad snaps. *sigh*

The one and only, Leon. Byebye.

Oh, jay. Jay, JAY!

Elegance.


Where it all begins. Love this poem. Ama-zing.

The girl.

The boy.

Them.

Where it all ends. i love you.

It reaches to your heart, from here.

A secret, meant to be kept. Shh..

My polka mac :) how i keep things clean and round. hehe.

Thats all for the picts. Keep it a secret, aight? haha, blabbers. Going. tA~*

Back to the basics.

It is time again. For a rest, to stop for a better beginning in 3 weeks time. TERM BREAK! :)

FIRSTLY, Jay Chou, i HEART YOU. haha. I heart the Secret. I dont mind wathcing it again and again. The storyline aint very realistic but yet it has its originality. It is unique as its own. I admire jay's piano skills. Seriously, its blast. I give thumbs up to this movie. *cheers* hehe. recommended, so run there and get your seats now guys. :)

Publication Design. I finally finish my mag, printed it and bind it. Yoo ray hoorah! Feels odd now that i actually dont have to rush for it or spent any time doing any work related stuff. Feels out of the routine. But, its okies lar. i need a break. Shh! Magazine out on the racks!! Come come, buy it!:P Like real, haha. I just hope i can score a good grade for it lar, pretty please? Wish me luck! Class on monday. *crosses fingers*

Zhi, today wanted to ask u out. But, instead spent time with family. HAPPY BDAY AGAIN anyways. hehe. Was pretty sick that i cant celebrate with you on that day itself. Blame marker test okay? hehe. Will definately make it up to you!

Uncle philip, IS WELL. he had a aorta- open heart surgery and he is better now and out of ICU. God is great. Amen. :P So visted him today with mum and ali. Then ventures to klcc. Scout ard and i got. *drumroll* My first branded bag- A Calvin Klein sling/shoulder bag for RM1079 after 10% discount. Was contemplating over a Gucci sling or this. So end up with this, since is a thousand bucks cheaper and this seem more funky and it had a duo-function. Thanks mama, dada. I LUP YOU. hehe. I am the luckiest girl alive. Although I DO NEED, new sunnies, new clothes, a manicure and pedicure, massage, facial, eyelashes extension and.. new jewelry. haha. OKAY LAR, i am quite greedy. But slowly lar. hehe. I will get them. No worries. Yays? the shopaholic ME is back. :P

I am quite glad that i feel myself again. I know i was so into my work till i neglected some of my close friends. I do care awfully alot for you all but just that i channeled all my effort and energy towards my work, my studies in TOA. I am so sorry that i let you all down. Just that, i am different. Different, i became more of a workaholic. And now, i am starting to see it. I will try to be my old self again. Rather sick of the grandma me now as well, just home and work. Sigh. hehe. Though i still prefer a normal life. Like, no more extreme stuff for me lar, i WANT TO BE NORMAL AND BORING. :P Sorry, but yes. hehe. Being the norm now and then can be fun, just movies, karaoke, shopping, sports, etc. That kinda thing lar. See you guys soon lar! :)

Sammie, i told my mum abt transferring credits and further studies to RMIT earlier. She is okay abt it. Its all up to me now. I do have to find out more abt it if i am really interested. Although life aint prefect now, but i do cherish and love it. So, maybe just find out?! Dont know. I guess i have to give it some thought if i am really serious abt it.

Gosh, TOA. you suck. I am not fond of the idea you taking away my exploration week and that we have to attend class during the holidays. I know mine is only Monday. But what abt the other students. Argh. Do you think we are cows? We are not robots, we need a break. (Okay, i might be half robot. haha) But still! I hate you.

Okay, do i sound more myself now? haha. I am feeling much relax and happy now. I feel i can make a difference and that i no longer am that ggressive. (Some of you know abt the pot story and the many elements) I am fine now. Need to go shower ad lar, been out whole day. Need to do the last cover for mag and photo shoot as well. Before i go, a picture of my white truffles baby? haha. Random lar. I like the holes the most out of the whole design. :P hehe.

See you guys soon lar, miss ya. :)

Isnt it adorable. hehe. It is simply irresistible.

Bed-time errant:P

Hah, better upload something before somebody complaints that i seldom update. hmnp! :P

Saturday

Yet another movie marathon day:)

What would you do if you were invisible? Well, Nic was kinda invisible. He was dying somewhere in the woods due to some complications. His soul was set free so can he can find someone to save him. Pretty weird that only the girl who caused him his injury was able to hear and feel him. The story comes along on how he attempts to lead the girl into making up for her mistake and he is alive again. -end- hah, what a brief. Basically thats the story. Being invisible is cool at some point if you can actually get to mess things up a bit, if you get what i mean. But, imagine how lonely you can be. Being alone where no one can see.

Okay, i assumed that it would be a pretty horror movie. But, it was okay lar. Not that scary. :) Its about this couple lar, they got stranded in the middle of no where and end up checking-in into this motel. A seriously fugged- up motel. They soon find tapes of people being hit and killed in that room they were staying in and there were cameras watching their every move. The people, (3 crazy man) was trying to killed them so that they can taped down all their horrified faces and screams. SICK. Luckily for them, they survive. -end- I wouldn't wanna be caught near any of this low-cost motels man. Totally freaky.

The Lovable & "Hugable" Jay.
Haha, saw this poster when i passed up the cinema. Cant wait for this movie to air. 16 AUGUST 07 Specially taken for you, Ms, cabbage. haha. :P You crazy jay fan! Even more hype than me. I think his new song has coincides with this movie, Secret. The day will come and you will see me running to get his tickets to watch the premier. hehe. YAYS!

Thats all for saturday. :p Owe me big time you, Sharmaine. hehe. For acc-ing you for late night movies! Belanja ice-cream! hah. Hope you enjoy your day and don worrie, there will be more late ngihts and party for you lar when your time comes. By then, you will find it boring and will be so sick of going out late ad. Then , you would rather just rot at home. hehe.

Sunday

Crazy day to catch up with work and finally i complete all my visual work. Sigh, i always find it a burden to do my visual work. Part of me dislikes it. Who likes it anyway? hah. Prefer more computer work so i will rather spent 10 days doing mag than one day with ANY visual work. :p But, life is unfair. So, beat it. Get it done and feel relax until the next weekend comes along.

Do you think, a person or a friendship will change? I was just giving things some thought. Don worrie, it ain't about anyone specific so don need to wonder. :) Its just a random thought of mine. When it comes to a complication, i don't wanna take sides. But, its hard to maintain it sometimes as i respect one's choice. So all i can tell myself is, there is no forever friends iether. As sooner or later, one party will be so annoyed by the other party's gig. Bound to happen cause, we are all just mere, humans. Girls, especially. Sigh?

Its getting a wee late now. Don't feel myself these days and i do feel i have a problem when i get so tense with work. Got to loosen up without feeling guilty of not being able to excel, it will be a challenge but, it is what i have to do. *Hops to bed* Bye.

Oh yah, din get to tell you guys that- I found place to do Manicure for only RM19.90, Pedicure for RM29.90. Buffering would be Rm10 extra. Pretty cheap, aight?

Its the Lovey Dovey season.

Okay, I wanted to upload some pictures BUT i cant seem to find any. :P Sorry peeps for the boring blog layout. Will keep it short as well. *winks*

3 more weeks- mag is coming to an end. As usual today i showed some of my new work to Leon. He says again that is not there yet; need more this and that; better. Yada. Its getting a lil tense but i know or at least i hope i will be able to rough everything out. :)

AGAIN, i went bu. Its getting a lil bore. NO wait, VERY BORE. haha. Went to get my sister's bday pressie. Got her a miniature perfume for her 26th bday! Went movies, that new gigi show? wonder woman. But its nice, it made me sob a lil and i find there is a story behind it. This is what i picked up
"When all bad things come to an end, there will be always some good in it." Hence it is always good to keep striving for a better life rather than just ending it since you will never know what will be installed for you at the very very end. :P

Why is there no school or place where they teach you how to pick up a soul mate? Or even a potential friend. Yay, i wish. I wish. But, WHO AM I KIDDING. This is not gonna happen. True love is rare and it sure wont come to me as, i am just not cut out to have it. Just noticed that now, is like a "Couple Season". Seriously, i see more couples walking ard in malls, anywhere, everywhere! Ah! Its insane!! Hah, okay lar. Not insane but, sweet? Cant imagine that even "love", there is a season. Weird, but very true. Observe, it tells. :P Hope, all my fellow mates that you will be able to pick some "friends" up during this merry season. hehe. Bless yah+me :P, may all of us find a cute, hawt and sweet boi to venture into our love fairytale.

Okay, this post is so crappy. Grammar wise or what so ever. Getting a lil high here. So bear with me. Whole long day out with only 2 hrs of sleep yesterday night. :( Need lay in my bed of roses. Checking out- ta.

Harry Potter and the Dealthly Hallows.

My o my. haha. you might be wondering why did i put a book's title as my post title?! Well, for the past 2 days. I have been reading this fat book which consists of 605 pages. TODAY, i finally and just complete it! Hee-Haa. Well, happy that i did. Yet sad to know that its the last book. The end of harry potter. Damn, that aint good. It has become a legend. Dont you reckon? Its a collectors item and i plan to collect them all. :) Not going to elaborate much of the story as i dont wanna break the bubble for those who hasn't finish the book. Its nice though, pretty tense at times. Yay, still enjoyed it. Will miss it too.

Last week been fine. Had a grade of a b- for leon's mid term. Funny thing is, i do better when i am not so tense with how to get things correct. He can see it from my work, so i ought to loosen up a little. :) Cant stop working, but just, relax perhaps? I will try, i will.

Good-bye my fellow cousins. Back in aussie again. Longing for your return and may god bless you both! Dont forget to write or pop by here if u all ever come by. :P xoxo.

To some may have known, my sister's case. What sets us apart is, i can never trust someone that fast again. I can hear him in the other room now. It seems that after the few days of breakout/ big hoo-ha. My sister had been seeing him. Well, i seriously dont approve of it. If he did like love her and all, when he made a mistake, why didnt he just confess? Rather than let my sister find out abt it? Means he actually had no intention of telling? I dont see how thingscan go right now. Or how to see him as a person. Feels weird. I feel, my sister had put herself ina position whereby she is worth, NOTHING. Nothing at all. Thats her choice, since she even went away with him last weekend. Can those things really make up? Sigh, I dont know.

Soon, the term will be over. This term was pretty, tense? so far. What i made myself follow and do. The work and all. Though i know its not much. But, i wish to excel and get better grades since i only had to juggle with that few subjects. Maybe thats why i have been having cramps and hearing stuff. Not to mention strange dreams and a topsy turvie sleep time. But, its okay i guess as, they have become part of me, part of my lifestyle. I do miss the old days, but, no point sulking over it. Ought to enjoy and get on with what i have now. Grateful as i am. Hope everyone is healthy and happy! -cheerie'o-

Vague.

Today, seem to be special. :) Make over shopping? Without getting anything you, silly girl. I know you will be reading this post. I have been sitting in front of tv and lappie since you left. Miserable that may sound. Yes, these days, it does seems to be like that. Me and my four walls, in a empty house. Just like a shell. Hollow shell. Best describe how i feel as well. I watched like what 3 love stories just now. Love? Whats that? It can be best describe as a game? A game which need players. Preferably just 2 players? Well, sometimes people can be greedy, so maybe more than that. Typical. yes, indeed. Its all about the pull and push, letting and holding to make the relationship a perfect one. Just that, sometimes, it dont seem to be that way.

I feel, isolated. Maybe cause i din make the effort to hang? But thats just it. I am just so worried on what i have. Though i do make it a point to ask, but it dont work both ways. sigh? Those who seem so near yet so far at times. Just seem different, get it? What am i saying here. It can be confusing. Indeed.

Oh yah, seeing him was also quite cute. Gawd, she is a lucky lucky girl. :P I pray to have her place. Yet again, sigh? Whats the good in praying or wishing. Gripping on what i have now seem more realistic?

All the best evryone to a better college week and for the days to come. Should scoot to bed! Take care my dearies. Miss ya's (plurals :P) dearly. Muck. hah.